Call My Name if You're Afraid,

"I'm just a kiss away."

I'm so happy.

I could go on and on, but I'll save that for when I've gathered my thoughts a bit more. :)

Forgive Me, Please.

So, there's something I cannot grasp about relationships these days.

Personally, I think when you're thinking about being in a relationship or already are in a relationship with someone, you should be ready to give your whole heart to them. You should be willing to go to the ends of the Earth to be with them. Sure, dating around is cool, but when it comes down to it--what are you going to want a few years from now?

Now obviously, if you realize you're not with the right person, don't go giving your heart away to the wrong one. That's a bad idea. I've learned from many experiences.

My problem is what I just stated. I tend to put my faith into potential relationships really quickly. My hopes go soaring through the ceiling and I'm absolutely captivated by that person...and I'm ready to give my heart to them. As for my dilemma, my heart is way too big. I feel absolutely too much, I think too much, and I love too much.

I don't think these are bad things for me to do, but I certainly think they're bad things when I end up getting the short end of the stick when I put my heart and soul into something that I think could have been everything. I'm not saying I fall in love with every person I date, because that's certainly not true. If I don't feel that I can give a person my heart anymore, I let go--because that's not fair to me or them.

Here lately I've been getting the short end of the stick a LOT. It's getting tiring. Eventually someone will see what I have to offer, and embrace it, and love it. I've just got to find him. And I know, I know, that I probably won't find him soon--but for now it would be nice to just have someone's companionship and possibly affections. I do want to find Mr. Right. I want to love, and be loved in return. And that scares people. I get it. But I just can't seem to hold myself back. If I like you, I like you, and you're going to know it. All about it. Excuse me for being flat-out honest and open. I'm sorry that I can't halfway like you, and/or give you half of my heart. That's just not fair, or right, in my mind.

/ventover.